It's days/nights/mornings like today that really remind me why I adore the people I adore.
I found an apartment to move into with Cayla and Perry, and I'm very excited.
But, despite my excitement, my heart is hurting a little because I become all the more aware of having to leave Kristin.
We'll still be in the same city, just blocks from each other,
but our impromptu nights like we had today won't be able to happen.
Living with Kristin has been absolutely amazing and makes me love her to pieces more and more every day.
I'm going to miss her more than I can describe and, as I'm now realizing, more than I thought.
I knew I'd miss her, but I figured it wouldn't be too much as we'll be really close to each other,
but I am going to miss her on levels insurmountable.
I wish there was a way to live with Cayla&Perry, and Kristin.
I really do.
I know I'm going to be spending every ounce of time I can with her before I leave, so hopefully it will help me transition decently,
but the whole moving two months earlier than I thought I would be is going to hurt, a lot.
But overall I'm more excited than anything else,
and loser-woman can come visit me every night she wants =].
I know this is good for me,
I'll just have to make a lot of dates to be with me hero/admirer.
And I know this is a ridiculous rant about something that I am more upset over than I should be,
But I think you would have to be Kristin or I to really understand the separation anxiety that I'm already dealing with.
And I have way way way too much to do in the next two weeks, but need money so I have to take as many hours as I can at work.
I'm not sure how I'm going to do this.
I know I'll make it work
but just thinking about how stressful this all is makes me ready to throw up.
I can feel my stomach churning as I type this all.
I really was expecting to have two more months for all of this...
P.S. If anyone isn't doing anything June 1st, and wants to help me move (particularly if you have a vehicle that can carry any of my vast amount of crap) I'd be more than grateful and welcoming to have you :)